March 16th ~ The Shock

March 16th

It is almost midnight and my glasses just broke.

I feel like everything that I grounded my security in has faded into pretty pictures of far off memories. My routine, my job, my school, are all indefinitely suspended. 

I don’t even know how I like to dress or what I like to eat, and that, dear reader, is something that I seldom experience.

My hair is wet and I am 2,000 miles away from the life that I had built in WY. 

My feet are in socks and I am 2,000 miles away from moving forward.

I am sitting up late in my parents' house, writing w/o glasses by the light of my little sister’s desk lamp.

What is happening?

Is this all because big things are going to come from turbulence of such magnitude?

Is it to teach the modern world the profound good in the simple?

Is it to try the patience of some? To try the faith of others?

Is it to teach some to pray and some to hope and still others to trust?

Dear God, what am I supposed to learn from this?

Love,

Laney